Today, after my check-up, the conclusion was that I need to begin maternity leave sooner rather than later. I’m retaining water, which is not unusual for being 38 weeks pregnant, but I’ve gained 6 lbs since last week and my ankles are pretty swollen. As Ed told me, 6 lbs of water weight is almost a gallon! It’s scary when you think about it that way. While my blood pressure is healthy, they’re concerned it will go up if I don’t get more rest.
When the doctor told me that I needed to make tomorrow my last day, I burst into tears. I think hormones may have been involved… I felt a combination of sadness (I thought I had one more week!) and relief (I’m exhausted!).
It’s going to be strange not to go to work next week, while my students and colleagues are still there. It’s not like a regular vacation, and it will feel weird to have life go on there without me. I’ve never NOT worked. But I’m sure that I won’t have time to worry about work once the baby makes his appearance.
Everyone tells me that becoming a mother is a life-changing experience, and I suppose leaving work is only a small fraction of that (since, of course, I will go back to work next year!). It just hit me that it’s so real now, the baby is coming soon, and life will change forever. I’m really excited for our new adventure into parenthood!